my story.

so i was going to start an acne blog ages ago, but i was too scared to show the world my skin.
i thought, "i'm more determined than ever it'll get better in a couple of weeks, i'll do it then"
but it never got better.

i've suffered from mild to severe acne for about 6 years now, and it's currently at its worst point.
i've tried pretty much everything except accutance, from countless creams, natural remedies, chinese herbal stuff which makes me want to vomit, benzoyl peroxide, antibiotics, switching lifestyle habits, healthy eating, drowning myself in drinking water, blue-light therapy, salon facials, the pill, supplementary vitamin tablets...

i'm at my most desperate point right now. i've currently turned eighteen and this should be the best year of my life!
it's ruined so many aspects of my life; i would be too ashamed to take my make-up off when having sleepovers with a big group of friends, i can't leave the house without make-up to walk across the road and buy a bottle of milk just in case someone i know drives past, i'm supposed to be moving into university housing which i had begged my parents for but now i'm too embarrassed that my potential housemates will see my real skin... if my parents are driving and they want to spontaneously stop at a restaurant for dinner, i would be too scared to get out of the car because i'm not wearing foundation. i take ages in the bathroom every morning and night, and sometimes i will leave a party early so i can go home and not disrupt my cleaning routine. i've never had a boyfriend, because i never thought i should have one until my face clears up, because one day i will have to show him my real face and he'll be like "holy shit" and i'll feel like i've been deceiving him the whole time. it has gotten to the point where it controls the decisions in my life, sometimes i just want to stay locked up in my room for days until my face clears up.

what really inspired me to create this blog was from watching youtube videos by cassandra banks (if you don't know who she is, here is a link: http://www.youtube.com/user/DiamondAndHeels14?feature=watch: i wish i had discovered her foundation video before my year 12 formal!) i think a blog will really help connect me to other acne sufferers out there, as well as allow me to keep track of my progress. one day, the fight will be won, and when it gets better i can share my progress with others, hopefully helping them too.

anyways, that's my intro for today + my first ever blog entry.
update soon :) xx