it's getting worse!

well, on my cheeks anyways.

i look at photos from a month ago (when i thought my acne was so severe) compared to now, and i have a new perception of what "severe acne" really is.

i keep asking myself WHYYYYYYYYYY?? isn't it getting better, despite everything i'm doing :(

the funny thing is, i never had acne on my back or neck, but i started getting acne on those areas after i went on medication. i've  been off medication for a week, and all my acne on my back hand neck has healed.

also, my nose and surrounding areas are completely clear (and also the areas in which i don't use benzoyl peroxide or anything which chemicals, only natural products such as jojoba oil as moisturiser) so i'm thinking that a 100% natural routine would be perfect, if only my acne wasn't so bad that i have to keep putting tinted moisturisers, bb cream or foundation on in order to go out in public!

another weird thing: i got a pimple under my nose a few days ago, and two days later, it's healed! and the pimples on my forehead is slowly fading. so what i'm doing with my routine must be kind of working... just not on my cheeks. i don't understand it, my severe acne is now all clustered on my cheeks and won't go away, and it's symmetrical on both sides of my face :'(

that's my update for the week... today i'm planning on going shopping and i really hate putting make-up on so what i've discovered is hiding my identity by wearing dark sunglasses and letting hair fall over one side of my face. that way, if i bump into someone i know, they won't recognise me... and all the other people i encounter will just see me as a random person with severe acne and no other real significance :)