update:
so i'm now into my second month on roaccutane. my lips are constantly chapped, but other than that, i haven't noticed any other side effects, besides hurting my wallet :(
the doctor has just doubled my dose to 20mg twice a day... which cost me $98 for a pack of 60 capsules.
apparently my skin will be clear afer three months of treatment. two more months of perserverance to go... *sigh*
i would be so much more motivated to wake up and live life every morning if i woke up to beautiful skin!
K xoxo
Tuesday, 31 July 2012
Tuesday, 24 July 2012
1,2,3: i can count my acne!
so quick update: although there are still red bumps and hyperpigmentation all over my skin, the white painful bumps are getting less... i can actually now count them!
from a rough count, there are about 25 now in total on my face, which makes me happy considering i couldn't even count them before since they were all piled on top of each other.
in a few days, i will have finished my first month on oratane (roaccutane).
krystal xx
from a rough count, there are about 25 now in total on my face, which makes me happy considering i couldn't even count them before since they were all piled on top of each other.
in a few days, i will have finished my first month on oratane (roaccutane).
krystal xx
Sunday, 15 July 2012
what a beautiful day...
today is such a lovely day! which also means that everyone can see my face clearly under the sunshine :(
and the sad thing is, this is better than before... my mum keeps saying she doesn't believe it's acne.
oratane hasn't stopped new spots from forming yet either, and even though my overall face is less lumpy and inflamed, these new spots are more big, bumpy and painful than before.
it's eating away at my face! even after my acne is gone, i'm still going to be left with deep holes all over my face.
lately everything seems kind of pointless. what's the point of exercising when i can't look good anyway? what's the point of getting out of bed this morning, when i have to face the world looking like this? why does every other girl i see have normal skin?
but never mind, life goes on, and i just have to learn to appreciate everything positive that happens. even though i can't improve my skin today, i can try and make other aspects of my life better, which is better than doing nothing at all... and what keeps me going is the belief that after this part of my life is over with, i will finally be beautiful.
and the sad thing is, this is better than before... my mum keeps saying she doesn't believe it's acne.
oratane hasn't stopped new spots from forming yet either, and even though my overall face is less lumpy and inflamed, these new spots are more big, bumpy and painful than before.
it's eating away at my face! even after my acne is gone, i'm still going to be left with deep holes all over my face.
lately everything seems kind of pointless. what's the point of exercising when i can't look good anyway? what's the point of getting out of bed this morning, when i have to face the world looking like this? why does every other girl i see have normal skin?
but never mind, life goes on, and i just have to learn to appreciate everything positive that happens. even though i can't improve my skin today, i can try and make other aspects of my life better, which is better than doing nothing at all... and what keeps me going is the belief that after this part of my life is over with, i will finally be beautiful.
Thursday, 12 July 2012
i need a miracle (first fortnight on roaccutane)
so it's been exactly fourteen days on oratane and everything's been pretty normal... sort of.
my skin has seen some improvement, but i'm not sure whether it's because of the natural healing process, the new products i've been using or because of the medication itself.
i'm not going to bother posting up photos because to everyone else, it doesn't look much different since it's still inflamed and red... but to me, my skin feels so much smoother and less bumpy every day :)
i was extremely paranoid the first few days, for a number of reasons. firstly, because roaccutane is meant to increase your cholestrol levels. the first night i ate about four slices of pizza and half a bag of m&m's... i was just craving junkfood, and then i freaked out afterwards because you're not meant to go crazy on fats and sugars. i was on the train back home that night staring at the rest of the m&m's and eventually i focused on wanting my skin to get better and having a great body in time for a high school reunion party in three weeks. setting your mind to something really works! (however, i've still been eating pretty unhealthy lately, i wonder if oratane makes you crave food more...?)
i was also really paranoid because i read that you're not meant to take minocycline and roaccutane together. i was on minocycline the day before i started taking roaccutane, and even though i didn't technically take them "together" in one day, i was afraid that the minocycline was still in my system and that it was dangerous to take them both so close together... but a fortnight after, i'm fine.
some days i feel really down, or i'm thinking so much that my mind is buzzing, and then i get really paranoid that its a side effect of the roaccutane, but otherwise nothing extreme. i've also been extremely tired lately despite being on university holidays and sleeping in a lot... but i can't really contribute that to anything.
my lips are also get drier than normal, either because of the cold weather or the medication, but i just keep applying lip balm about four times a day... however i don't think my skin has gotten any drier (my skin type is oily). another abnormal thing is i've developed a blackhead on my face, and i haven't gotten a blackhead in years! it's not very noticeable to others in comparison to my red face yet it really stands out to me... but it's hardly a thing to complain about.
tomorrow night is a high school reunion party, which i have been looking forward to for two months... the event of the year. but honestly, i can't go with my skin looking like this... it's so frustrating and upsetting because if i didn't get that stupid microdermbrasion treatment, i wouldn't have to sacrifice tomorrow night. so i need a miracle... that at least my skin won't be bumpy tomorrow and i can cover the redness with foundation :(
i wish i could go back in time, been brave enough to go on the medication three months ago instead of messing around with different medications, and have clear skin by by now.
but i guess in life you can't have everything, and sometimes you have to make sacrifices. maybe tomorrow night just isn't meant to be. soon all my skin problems will be gone and maybe next high school reunion, i can look the best i've ever looked :')
so that's my update for today; i just wanted to to share this especially with those scared of going on roaccutane, and let you know that its not as scary as it sounds (well it hasn't been for me yet). some days, i can't bear to even look at myself in the mirror... i have never seen another girl with a skin condition like mine. i'd rather tolerate the side effects than not being able to tolerate myself.
krystal xx
my skin has seen some improvement, but i'm not sure whether it's because of the natural healing process, the new products i've been using or because of the medication itself.
i'm not going to bother posting up photos because to everyone else, it doesn't look much different since it's still inflamed and red... but to me, my skin feels so much smoother and less bumpy every day :)
i was extremely paranoid the first few days, for a number of reasons. firstly, because roaccutane is meant to increase your cholestrol levels. the first night i ate about four slices of pizza and half a bag of m&m's... i was just craving junkfood, and then i freaked out afterwards because you're not meant to go crazy on fats and sugars. i was on the train back home that night staring at the rest of the m&m's and eventually i focused on wanting my skin to get better and having a great body in time for a high school reunion party in three weeks. setting your mind to something really works! (however, i've still been eating pretty unhealthy lately, i wonder if oratane makes you crave food more...?)
i was also really paranoid because i read that you're not meant to take minocycline and roaccutane together. i was on minocycline the day before i started taking roaccutane, and even though i didn't technically take them "together" in one day, i was afraid that the minocycline was still in my system and that it was dangerous to take them both so close together... but a fortnight after, i'm fine.
some days i feel really down, or i'm thinking so much that my mind is buzzing, and then i get really paranoid that its a side effect of the roaccutane, but otherwise nothing extreme. i've also been extremely tired lately despite being on university holidays and sleeping in a lot... but i can't really contribute that to anything.
my lips are also get drier than normal, either because of the cold weather or the medication, but i just keep applying lip balm about four times a day... however i don't think my skin has gotten any drier (my skin type is oily). another abnormal thing is i've developed a blackhead on my face, and i haven't gotten a blackhead in years! it's not very noticeable to others in comparison to my red face yet it really stands out to me... but it's hardly a thing to complain about.
tomorrow night is a high school reunion party, which i have been looking forward to for two months... the event of the year. but honestly, i can't go with my skin looking like this... it's so frustrating and upsetting because if i didn't get that stupid microdermbrasion treatment, i wouldn't have to sacrifice tomorrow night. so i need a miracle... that at least my skin won't be bumpy tomorrow and i can cover the redness with foundation :(
i wish i could go back in time, been brave enough to go on the medication three months ago instead of messing around with different medications, and have clear skin by by now.
but i guess in life you can't have everything, and sometimes you have to make sacrifices. maybe tomorrow night just isn't meant to be. soon all my skin problems will be gone and maybe next high school reunion, i can look the best i've ever looked :')
so that's my update for today; i just wanted to to share this especially with those scared of going on roaccutane, and let you know that its not as scary as it sounds (well it hasn't been for me yet). some days, i can't bear to even look at myself in the mirror... i have never seen another girl with a skin condition like mine. i'd rather tolerate the side effects than not being able to tolerate myself.
krystal xx
Monday, 2 July 2012
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